I’m not a very good writer, but I try…as much as I can.
Life can be very hard. So many people, so many expectations
Everyone has something to say,
Everyone has the perfect definition of who you should and should not be.
Everyone hurts, and according to them, You hurt them
Everybody wants something.
Everyone has some perspective, of who you are, and who they want you to be.
I don't care about everyone now do I? Heavens No! I care about family and the few people close to my heart.
But even they have who they want me to be, perspectives of me, and those they expect me to fit in — who & what they expect me to be.
But, who then cares what I have to say
Who cares if I hurt too????
Who cares if I’m struggling???
Who cares if I’m struggling with who I am and who I try to be for them??
Everyone just wants something, and that's all that matters.
I’m in fear maybe I’ve walked around all my life with the wrongest perspective & beliefs. Now peaking that “Maybe IDEK” point. But this time it's different because this time it comes with frustration.
Life’s very confusing. It's this simple, yet very fucking complex puzzle.
The whole point of love is to be selfless, with your feelings, emotions, perspectives…with everything — Like Christ. But it's hard when you have very little left of yourself to go around. But nobody cares now, do they? They want what they want, regardless.
I sure don’t know how Christ did it, maybe he had a better, deeper spiritual understanding of the world and how we humans are wired. Or maybe… IDK.
I wonder so many things, but I guess if I knew them all, I guess I wouldn't be human…
They say a man is defined by his values, beliefs, and perspectives…
What happens when you lose them? What happens when life invalidates them all?
….
I learned something either very vital some weeks ago. Someone insinuated to me that, in every argument, both parties hold a valid point of view. Both the right and the wrong, they’re both right as far as their world goes (until proven otherwise) So, I've ever since then been thrown in a state of…i don’t know.. a state of ‘what then is the whole fucking point?’
I’ve thought and thought about it, but can’t seem to reach a conclusion.
I have so many questions, so many.
Generally just tired.
So maybe…. maybe IDK…
But maybe…… maybe that's Okay.
As I said, I’m not a very good writer,
This piece likely doesn’t hold structure, but idc that's the state of my mind at the moment.
What’s the point?
What are we even doing on here
Maybe its time Lord
Maybe it's time we returned?
It's all just chaos down here.
Or maybe it's not?
Perhaps maybe, life is trying to teach me something
a new perspective?
A new approach?
a new point of view, a new standpoint? One thing’s for sure, I’m learning something new, at the moment, maybe I don't know.
